Tired old me

My energy level today is at its lowest since I have been here. I guess talking non-stop for 8 hours a day does take its toll. And having students whose energy level is not at its optimum doesn't help. I get easily affected by people around me - that's me the cancerian. One of my students is home, sick. Another is 7 month pregnant. Another is a hyperactive child of 24 who gets bored after lunch. Another is a stoic ex-IT person turn HR. Oh boy. Talking to the corny one did not help today. Usually I draw energy from him. I perk up everytime I speak to him, unless of course when things don't go quite right. Not today. I am just tired, and I feel old. It's only 8.15 pm and I really can't keep my eyes open. Don't even feel like calling R who just got back late last night. Hope I can last through tomorrow. I need the weekend!

Living in a bubble

I always get this feeling when I am in a place foreign to me. The feeling of being in a bubble. Where I exist in the surrounding, but so insulated from what is going on around me. I can be part of a crowd, walking during the rush hour, but I am so far away from everything. Like I don't belong. And I feel that now. Like the surrounding is alien, foreign. Well, it is. But do other people feel the same way?

Desert Calls

I am back again in the arid land of the middle east. Amazing how fate seems to steer me more and more to this part of the world. Not that I ever planned it that way. Perhaps it's a reminder of what is diminishing in my thoughts, or a way to steer me back towards the one I am forgetting. And yes, he has been happy, ecstatic to see me again. Perhaps, our deal to see each other as often as possible is being made possible. Perhaps, like I said, it is a reminder that there is someone who thinks of me, the one that is fading from my memory. I have to think more of this.

Thank you anyway, for the reminder, although I do feel that I want to be elsewhere, with someone else at this time.